Category: Osho Sannyasins

Questions?

During the entire three to four years I spent in Poona, I never submitted a question to Osho for discourse. It just didn’t happen. But once I felt compelled to ask something during darshan. Darshan was an intimate gathering of sannyasins and visitors that took place in the evenings. Many sannyasins asked about personal problems, very often concerning relationship issues.

When Sumati and I arrived back from Japan, I thought I should ask a question, so I formulated a flippant one about how difficult relationship was. To be honest, it was not really my question, but I felt like I was missing out on time in front of Osho addressing sannyasins’ burning issues. I remember even when I asked, I felt like a phony. It just wasn’t a real question for me. Osho never responded. He just ignored the question.

If one had ashram life or work-related questions, they could be submitted through the office. You would get an answer in a couple of days. There are those who believe that some letters were never answered by him but by one of his secretaries. For me, it does not matter because for the two questions I submitted during my time in the ashram, the answers were right.

Samurai guards at karate practice.

At some point during my working life with Deeksha, I wanted a change. No doubt, it was during some period I wasn’t enjoying very much. During my first stay in Poona, I had volunteered and helped out with packing books. Gatha was in charge, and we had developed a nice connection. And now two years later, Gatha was still in charge of the book packing, so I wrote a letter to Osho and asked if I could work with the books. The answer I received was yes, but first I had to pass through the fire. And of course, working in Vrindavan was that fire.

The next request involved some kind of historical fantasy. In the beginning, the Ashram security was taken care of by the Krishna guards. They were called this because the sannyasin responsible for this team was named Krishna. They would be the ones posted at Lao Tzu gate and the entrances to the Ashram. But at some point, a new group was formed and they were called Samurais. This group was led by Shiva. They had great Samurai uniforms and it was difficult not to be envious of their position. My interest in the samurais lay more with the Japanese Samurai tradition. Samurais were honorable, spiritual warriors and somehow that struck a chord inside. I wrote to Osho and asked if I could be a Samurai. The answer I got back was that I was already a samurai. A couple of years later, at the Ranch in Oregon, I would find I was both working with the books and in the Peace Force, at the same time.

-purushottama

This is from the collection of stories, essays, poems and insights that is compiled to form the book From Lemurs to Lamas: Confessions of a Bodhisattva. Download a PDF or order the book Here.

The End of Seeking?

These days on every corner you can find a teacher holding “satsang” and telling you that they have come to the end of seeking.

Ask them how they came to the end of seeking. Did they come to this realization without seeking, or did they first go through many trials and tribulations of seeking to finally arrive at the end of seeking.

And if they did, in fact, come through seeking, what is the value of telling others about their own non-seeking? Is it to brag? Are they not doing a disservice to those who are still in the midst of their journey? Should they not encourage others to continue to the end of their own seeking without trying to cut short the journey through some false non-existent short cut?

Or was it just some accidental happening, in which case, what is the value of telling others about that which is only a personal event and which cannot be reproduced?

There are probably many who have discovered their own inner landscape spontaneously, or even accidentally, but they are not of much help to others. No, rather than hang out with these satsang teachers, seek out the teachings of masters who are skilled at guiding others out of their delusions, confusions and misunderstandings. Once out of the quagmire, one finds the light shining with ever such splendor and it is then, and only then that seeking disappears.

-purushottama

Watching and also Forgetting the Content

This last week’s meditation program, Program #05: Like the Empty Sky it has No Boundaries, inspired the latest posting on another koan.

Osho speaks about both watching the mind and forgetting the content. The two together seem to be quite a paradox. If I watch the mind, how can I forget the content? And if I forget the content, how can I watch the mind? When I first try to put into practice both of these instructions, I find that I am constantly flipping back and forth. So how can I simultaneously watch the activities of the mind and forget the content?

What I have found is that if I watch the mind in the same way as I watch a movie or a television show then indeed there is no way to both watch and forget the content. But if I watch with the qualities that are prescribed by Osho, that is watching without grasping and without rejecting, watching without analyzing, and watching without judging and at the same time remember that I am the watcher and not the content (the double-pointed arrow), then slowly, slowly the content begins to evaporate and I am left with only a watchingness without content. And so, here I am watching, and the content is forgotten, or more accurately the content has disappeared on its own, and there is no more flipping back and forth, at least until of course I fall out of watching with these qualities.

-purushottama

For more on this topic, you may wish to explore:

The Awakening of the Double-Pointed Arrow

Meditation Involves all Three

Awakening Before Enlightenment

After Awakening Before Enlightenment

Meditation Involves all Three

Osho often talks about the difference between concentration, contemplation and meditation or dhyana. Mostly, he is making a distinction in order to prod us on into real meditation or dhyana. But just this morning, and it is so obvious I am almost embarrassed to say that it was a realization, I did, in fact, realize that meditation involves all three. Many times, when I begin my sitting, I first gather myself to move out of identification with the mind into being able to watch the mind. So first, I am focusing my energy into watching. This is concentration.

Only after the watching is concentrated am I able to watch the mind with indifference, to watch the mind like I would watch a river flow from the bank. This watching is equal to contemplation. Just letting the thoughts flow without interference.

If I am able to watch without grasping, without rejecting, without judging and without analyzing, then the flow of thought begins to subside. It is the grasping, rejecting, judging, interfering that perpetuates the movement of thought. When I am able to watch without doing those things and thought subsides, that is when dhyana begins to be revealed. When there is nothing to be seen and there is only watchingness, awareness aware of itself, that is dhyana.

-purushottama

For more on this topic, you may wish to explore:

The Awakening of the Double-Pointed Arrow

Watching and Forgetting the Content

Awakening Before Enlightenment

After Awakening Before Enlightenment

 

The Awakening of the Double-Pointed Arrow

It seems to me that the awakening of the double-pointed arrow is the fulcrum point, the nexus, of meditation. Before the awakening, all meditation is an exercise in creating and realizing the double-pointed arrow. After the awakening of the double-pointed arrow, meditation is about stabilization, and then with this stabilized awareness – the witness – the transformation occurs.

 

 

What is the double-pointed arrow? The simplest definition is awareness, or the witness. It is not only awareness of objects but also awareness of our own subjectivity, hence the witness. Without this element, there is no possibility of transformation. In fact, it is because of this element of a double-pointed arrow, the witness, that transformation takes place.

When we begin by watching the activities of the body or watching the breath, we are endeavoring, knowingly or unknowingly, to create the level of awareness where one is also aware of oneself, the double-pointed arrow.

It is in the activity of watching the mind that the turning point happens. It is by watching the mind that one becomes aware of being something other than the mind, and this is precisely the awakening of the double-pointed arrow, the awakening of the witness. It is important to point out that this awareness of being something beyond the mind is not just an intellectual or conceptual understanding. But rather it is the experience of there being thought (mind) but also the knowingness, the actual experiencing of being something beyond the mind, hence the double-pointed arrow.

And it is here after one first becomes aware of this double-pointed arrow that the work of stabilization takes place. For some time, one finds oneself shifting back and forth between pre-awakening and post-awakening until finally this state of double-pointed arrow is stabilized. This shifting back and forth is natural to the stabilization process.

From this stabilized watching, we witness the heart, and transformation gains momentum until finally what is watched is watchingness itself, being, the witness. At this point there is no longer a double-pointed arrow, just a single all-encompassing awareness. Here the observer is the observed. Here there is no center and no periphery, there is only oneness.

Bodhi Svaha!

-purushottama

For more on this topic, you may wish to explore:

Meditation Involves all Three

Watching and Forgetting the Content

Awakening Before Enlightenment

After Awakening Before Enlightenment

Witnessing is the Bee’s Knees of Meditation

Months ago, we began the module Osho Tantra and the Secrets of Meditation with the first three of Shiva’s 112 meditation techniques, Between Two Breaths, As Breath Turns from Down to Up, and Whenever In-Breath and Out-Breath Fuse, all three of these meditation techniques focused on the breath. We moved on to the third eye with Attention Between Eyebrows and self-remembering with Be Aware You Are.

With the technique Wherever Your Mind is Wandering, we began to get a glimpse of witnessing. With Consider Your Essence as Light Rays Rising, we explored the chakras. We tossed attachment for body aside with You are Everywhere and dropped thinking with Thinking No Thing.

And then we moved on to the more subtle techniques, including Contemplate Something Beyond Perception, and the sublime Put Mindstuff in Such Inexpressible Fineness. In our last Tantra program, we entered shunyam, emptiness with Suppose Your Passive Form to be an Empty Room.

In today’s program, we will come to the end of Osho Tantra and the Secrets of Meditation with this the twentieth program. This program is based on the last of the meditation techniques from The Book of Secrets, number 112 of the Vigyan Bhairav Tantra and is called Enter Space, Supportless, Eternal, Still.

Yesterday in our dialogue the topic of blending techniques and whether Osho’s Witnessing Meditation is a technique and not to be blended with the 112 techniques.

Yes, we are instructed not to blend the techniques. But Osho’s Witnessing is not a technique. What is it? It is “seeing what is, without interfering.” We watch the activities of the body (what is), we watch the activities of the mind (what is), we watch the activities of the heart (what is), all without interfering. It is simply witnessing. Witnessing is not a technique. It is Zazen Meditation. It is sitting silently, doing nothing.

Because we are already doing much, in order to come to doing nothing, something has to change. What has to change is that we have to stop the doing. How do we stop the doing, i.e., thinking, dreaming, etc.? We stop thinking by watching our thinking without interacting.

It also seems to me with almost every one of the 112 techniques witnessing comes into play.

For example:

Attention Between Eyebrows, Let Mind Be Before Thought. How do we “let mind be before thought”? By watching mind with indifference.

Eyes Closed See your Inner Being in Detail. How do we “see our inner being in detail”? By not going out and interacting with mind.

When Singing, Seeing, Tasting, Be Aware You Are. How do we become aware we are? By not being in thinking. By watching the body in singing, etc. with a double pointed arrow. The double pointed arrow means, “remember you are.”

Wherever Your Mind is Wandering. We watch our mind wandering but without grasping, rejecting, analyzing, judging.

Before Desire and Before Knowing. Ditto.

Thinking No Thing. Witnessing.

Suppose You Contemplate Something Beyond Perception. Ditto.

Perceive One Being as Knower and Known. The double pointed arrow of the witness.

Put Mindstuff in Such Inexpressible Fineness. How do we “put mindstuff in such inexpressible fineness”? By watching, by witnessing.

And all the rest even up to the last technique, Enter Space, Supportless, Eternal, Still. How to enter that space? We enter by sitting silently, doing nothing, just remaining a witness until there is nothing left to witness. Just supportless, eternal, still.

So yes, we are instructed not to blend the techniques, but witnessing is not a technique and is at the very core of each of these techniques. And it is through watching, witnessing, that we enter these techniques, and it is by watching, witnessing, that we arrive at the space which these techniques are pointing.

So, why do I refer to Osho’s Witnessing Meditation (O-Meditation) as the “bee’s knees?” Because it is the way and the goal, the first step is the last step.

-purushottama

 

I Have a Confession to Make

On this day, December 11th, in which Osho came into this world, I have a confession to make. Even though Osho spoke continuously about the need for meditation and introduced us to the 112 meditation techniques of the Vigyan Bhairav Tantra, developed his active meditations in order to bring us more quickly into meditation, and while in the body spoke for hours daily bringing us into a listening meditation, I did not regularly sit in meditation until 20 years after he left the body.

And to be honest, for most of those 20 years, I was deceiving myself into thinking that I didn’t need to spend time in sitting meditation because I was meditating all the time. I don’t think that was true, but even if it was, to be watching the activities of the body, eating, walking, relating with others, working or even watching the breath is only the first step in Osho’s Vipassana meditation. And as he tells us, the second step is watching the activities of the mind (thought), and the third step is watching the activities of the heart (feelings). I found that the only way I can really watch my mind is by sitting silently and looking directly at the movement of thought. It is in this watching without grasping, without rejecting, without analyzing and without judgment that occasionally I find myself out of mind.

But since that time 14 years ago, I have sat for an hour a day, every day, with the exception of only a couple of long flight nights. In the beginning, perhaps you could have called it a practice, but I am not even sure of that, but certainly for many years it has been, and continues to be, just a joy to be in those moments when occasionally everything comes to a stop. And so, in gratitude to all that has come before I can only say, “meditate, meditate, meditate, just for the sheer joy of it.” And as the Beatles used to sing, “Jai Guru Dev.”

-purushottama

You may also like to read: The Three Steps of Awareness.

Trust

I found the tree of trust!
I have been seeking it Recently
Ever since it took a morning Walk
Without me.

I found it glowing
Within

Hallelujah!
Life is so uncomfortable
In its absence.

And dawning
(Not for the first time
but such glimpses of understanding
do take off)
The exhilarating sensation
That trust is not in someone
Or even something
But a totally independent phenomenon
Fluid
Unshakable
Even by the most magnificent of tempests.

Its presence
So apparent
In my absence.

-Amido

Your Song

You know,
It’s not just the ear that is attuned to music!
But behind the eyes
May prickle.
And those Purkinje fibers in the heart,
May tremble
And reverberate
To Beethoven’s
Moonlight Sonata.

Not only
From external stimuli
Do such things happen.
Love, unfathomable love,
Stirs those strings.
And then you can hear
The song of your heart.

-Amido

The Swimming Dragon

Many years ago, I stumbled across a very simple ch’i kung (qigong) exercise that has stayed with me through the years. Every now and then I return to it and just last week was one of those times. But now as the years roll by, it is an even more important addition to my daily life. Being reminded of the joy of discovery of this extremely simple yet powerful practice, I wanted to share it.

There seems to be many different variations on the practice. If you search in YouTube, you will find several. But I want to recommend this particular variation as taught by Master Tzu Kuo Shih.  From the back of his book, we learn: Master Shih is a fifth-generation doctor of traditional Chinese medicine (including acupuncture and herbal treatment). Born in Shanghai, he is the first in the West to teach the Swimming Dragon, as well as certain other previously secret forms. Noted in China as a ch’i kung and t’ai chi master, doctor and cancer specialist, as well as painter and writer.

When I first learned of this practice, Master Shih was still living in Kingston, New York. Unfortunately, I never met him in person. However, Amido and I did travel to Connecticut a few years back to attend a Swimming Dragon workshop that was being taught by one of his daughters. Consequently, I learned the practice through Master Shih’s book, The Swimming Dragon, and his video, and then brushed up on my technique with the workshop. The book is still available from Amazon, but I have not been able to find copies of the video available for sale. I am posting a link to view and download the video below. I am also posting two other videos, the first is probably the best for learning. It is from a direct student of Master Shih and is very clear in its instruction. The second video is from someone who was self-taught and learned Master Shih’s version of The Swimming dragon through his book and video – demonstrating the movement.

Personally, I think that it is best to use both the book and the videos. The book is much more detailed about the practice and also introduces a few ch’i kung meditations which include the Sitting Dragon Meditation. The videos are extremely helpful in getting the movement right.

Enjoy!

-purushottama

This is from one of Master Shih’s direct students, very clear in its instructions.

The second is from a self-taught student.

And the third is from Master Shih himself. You can either watch from the link below or download The Swimming Dragon, Master Shih video (I apologize for the quality, but I think still helpful).